New Start!!!

Finally!!!!
I have found a new job I have been going thru so much at my old job that i decided i need a new start.
This past week I have been so stressed that I haven't worked out or have been watching my calories or my diet for that matter. I should NOT use that as excuse for not doing my  part on what i have to do. I feel very bad that I have not been taking care of my diet or my work out  program. I promise I will be better this week. Sometimes I feel like it one week does not work for you then try again the next week, Its always a new week to change things from the last week, that's all I can actually do at this point, I'm not giving up on my goal. I wont  give up. So back to my new job, I did it!!!!! I got the job  that I have been wanting for so long.
Staring tomorrow I will start working in a totally different field and totally new people just a fresh start. I can wait!!!! Hopefully  I will get a good night of sleep so  I can wake up fresh and ready to learn, training will be for the next 5 weeks, then after that i will be on the job. So now my promise is that I will have a great week! I see a great week ahead . Great job and great Healthy eating are heading my way. I hope everyone  is having a wonderful weekend. And start a wonderful Week with positive thinking!

Weight In

I should start this blogg with a confession so here it goes my food intake was not the best this week and my lack of motivation kept me away from all my work outs. Ok so we got that out in the open.  I have never been so scared of the scale in my life. It might sound silly but it’s all true. I kept walking back and forward in front of it and kept saying to my self gosh all this hard work for nothing all this hard work to have such a horrible week. So yes I finally did it. Waiting at this point I had to close my eyes. In my mind I said here goes nothing so I opened my eyes one at it time there is was the numbers I was so scared. To my surprise I had lost weight I was 5 pounds lighter..... There was no way I had lost 5 pounds.... so I got off the scale and jumped on it again yes there it was I had lost a total of 5 pounds... I was so happy jumping up and downs doing the happy dance I know it was silly but 5 pounds is a lot because usually I lose 2 to 1 pound in 2 weeks. Or like my doctors said it healthy to lose 2 to 3 pounds ever 2 weeks... So you can imagine how happy this made me. For some old reason it brought my motivation back now I feel more motivated to keep going keep fighting towards my goal. Yesterday I kept asking my self I need motivation I need the determination to keep me focus on  this weight loss journey .Today I got just that My determination is back and I'm going to achieve my goal. I had set my self a small goal to lose 30 pounds before my birthday so as of today I have lost 31 pounds; I have achieved my small goal. There is still 52 days into my birthday so I’m going for it. I want to lose another 10 pounds before my birthday. Small goals feel so amazing when we achieve them. So I hope everyone achieves there goal this week. Have a wonderful weekend everyone

Stress = No Motivation

My motivation  is missing  :-( 

This past week its been so stressful with my work schedule changing the way its been it has my whole body and energy level thru the ruff . All my meal planing has gone out the window and my body is really feeling it. I just been so tired with not wanting to do anything. Today has been the worst day of them all. I know I have a weight in tomorrow. I'm hopping the results are not as bad. Even thought I haven't been doing what i need to be doing but when you go from working 6 to 2 for the most part to working 10 pm to 6 am. it sucks and its making my healthy life change almost impossible. I don't want to feel like once again i failed but this work schedule is really messing with me I don't get much sleep and because of the lack of sleep i have no energy to work out.I cant give up on my weight loss I just cant do that to my self ... The only thing left to do is look for another job that has more of a set schedule. because this bouncing around and never not  knowing what my week is going to look like its killing me. its hard to plan your life around your work when you don't know what your work schedule would look like the next week . To be honest I don't even think that is healthy. But that's life.... what makes you feel motivated when everything around you is so wrong ?

Frustration Ahead

                                                                    Frustration Ahead

Have you ever heard that your mind can be your worst enemy? That’s just how I feel right about now or ever since I got the news that my work schedule was going to change to Night audit meaning I will be going from working 6 am to 2 pm to working 10pm to 6 am. My whole eating habits and working out schedules will have to change dramatically in the next couple of days. I finally felt that I was getting on track of all my eating and working habits but what’s going too happened now.

Trying to keep a positive attitude and not lose my focus , I have been down this road before and was one of the reasons I gain a lot of weight when you don’t have a set schedule can really hurt on this journey of weight loss ,so you can understand my frustration. Hopefully I am just being little negative and the out come will be different this time. Weight loss is a heard journey with a lot of temptation and set back.

Start Over With Every Day

If you have started out in pursuit of your goal
And you have really tried with your heart and your soul,
But somehow things got out of control
START OVER.

When you have tried your best to do what you should
And you thought this time that you surely would,
But once again, you did not do good
START OVER.

When you have worked so hard to follow a dieters way
And you fought to win a victory each day.
But one more time you went astray
START OVER.

When you have tried so hard to yourself to be true
And do the things that you know you should do,
But once again you failed to come through
START OVER.

When the road to success seemed much too long
And each temptation was oh so strong
And once again you gave in to wrong
START OVER.

When you have told your friends what you planned to do
And trusted them to help you through
But soon discovered it is up to you
START OVER.

When you know you must be physically fit,
But your hope seems gone and you are stuck in a pit
That is not the time for you to quit
START OVER.

When the week seems long and successes few
And at weigh in time you are feeling blue,
Remember tomorrow is just for you
START OVER.

To start again means a victory is been won
And starting over again means a race well run
And starting over again proves it can be done
So do not just sit there
START OVER.

Just one pound at  a time can mean a lot at the end!!!

Just One Pound!!!!

Hello, do you know me?
If you don't, you should. I'm a pound of fat,
And I'm the HAPPIEST pound of fat that you would ever want to meet.
Want to know why?
It's because no one ever wants to lose me;
I'm ONLY ONE POUND, just a pound!
Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds, but never only one.
So I just stick around and happily keep you fat.
Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it.
That is, until I've grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight.
Yes, it's fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT, left to do as I please.
So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, "Oh, I only lost one pound."
For you see, if you do this, you'll encourage others to keep me around because they'll think I'm not worth losing.
And, I love being around you - your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips and every part of you.
Happy Days!!!
After all, I'm ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!!

Determination today leads to success tomorrow!

Success is not a race, be patient.
Success leads to success.
Success is always a work in progress.
Success doesn't come to you--you go to it.
Success is a journey, not a destination. Focus on the process.
Some people dream about success... while others wake up and work hard at it.
Success is achieved and maintained by those who try-and keep trying.
Everyday is a good day to SUCCEED!
If at first you don't succeed-try, try again

It has not been such a good past week emotional and healthy wise for me I'm sad to admit I have gain 2 pounds :-). To some people 2 pounds is not a big difference but to be or to anyone on a weight loss journey  mean a lot. This wont stop me to obtain my goal It actually motivates me to be more determine  to reach my goal. I was told that  little steps are better then big impossible jump so that's what I'm going to do take it in little steps. I want to lose 10 before my birthday so that gives me 63 days to achieve  a loss of 10 pounds . I know I can do it !!!!

Be Your Own Kind Of Beautiful

Very excited to update on my weight loss, I have been doing so good that I can’t help but share my excitement with my blog. So about 8 weeks I decided that I had let my self go way to much and decided that once and for all I need a change for my self and my health . Even thought I don't  have a problem with being a plus size women I believe that a person weight does not make them  or stop them I'm achieving anything they  want in life , but as I'm getting older and irresponsible I wanted to take responsibility for my weight. I have the most amazing little girl. I need to be as healthy as I can be so I can be around for many years to come to see her become wonderful independent women. I don't have any health issues as of right now but I don't want to take that risk later on in life. Back to my UPDATE!!! In 8 weeks I have lost a total of 26 pounds and I couldn't be happier!!!!! It has not been easy but where there is no pain no game right..... LOL….  I been working out about 5 times a week and eating right. Making little changes has taking me a long way. I couldn't be more proud of my self. A friend of mind asked me today maybe that one thing that motivated me to write on my blog. She had very direct questions that kind of toke me a couple of min to think about it. She said all this healthy eating and working out has to do with you trying to become beautiful right? As I have mention in my blog before this change is for me. Not because someone called me fat not because I want my boyfriend to love me more or not because I want to make other people happy. The change is only for me. Sometimes your friends can actually me your worst enemies. Sometimes is better to keep weight loss to your self because there is always going to be those people that hate to see other people happy. In my case there is nothing more I like to see then my family and friends doing good for them self’s I guess that not always the case. I was kind of upset knowing this was kind of a low question or comment. But I still answered the question. (No I'm doing this because I want to have a healthy life style!) I have always been My Own Kind Of Beautiful!!!! .

Being a size 2 or a size 22 does not define me as a person. I will not allow my weight define who I am because I know I will always BE MY OWN KIND OF BEAUTIFUL :-)

Zumba Zumba & more Zumba

A while back about one year ago stared Zumba class with a couple of friends. We had such a great time well at least I did. The drive to the gym where my classes where was so far about 30 min away  to top it all off I had to be there about 30 before class actually stared because it will just get so full. Even thought I loved the classes I just stopped going and yes you guessed it was all laziness .about 8 weeks I took a really good look in the mirror after coming back from a romantic trip with my boyfriend. I really couldn't believe that I had let go my self be so out of shape, I have always been a big girl but this was just too much because even thought I have always been a bog girl I have never been this lazy and had lived such a non-active life. I was so out of breath just to walk down the hall. It was so scary so that was it for me i need a change asap!!!! So that's where all begin I don't plan to be a size 2 not even a size 12. All I'm really looking for is to be healthy and active. Might have got little off track there lol... Back to zumba since I really didn't want to take that long drive to my classes I stared doing zumba on the wii I have to admit it was fun but after a little while it got kind of boring , them my amazing Boyfriend bought me the zumba DVD set . OMG!! I'm so addicted to it . The first night i got the package I did about 3 hours of it and I still wanted to do more :-) but my poor body was hurting. Ever since I have been doing about 2 hours daily except on the weekends since that's the only time I get to spend with my boyfriend and family. I love dancing and feel like finally found something I love to do as a work out.

What do you like to do for fun that can be a good work out?

Just the beginning!

It’s been a month that I have taken this new challenge. I must admit I have done really well I work out 5 times week. The most challenging part has been the eating better part; I have been doing good but not great :-). I guess it will just take time to change the life style; I have completely giving up SODA! I have not had diet coke in about 6 weeks. Let me just add that I would drink about 6 a day so to me this is a great achievement in my challenged. In One month I have lost 12.8 pounds Yay!!! To some people it might not be much but to be has been a great achievement :-). Also I have been able to see the changes on my face and my pants are a little more loose. Working out gives me so much energy I no longer feel drowsy or lazy when I get off work. Everyone around me compliments me on how happy I look and it sure feels great.

Big Sexy!

Big Sexy!
I have to say that might be one of my favorite reality show, and YES! It’s only be on for one episode. I know I will relate to some of the thing they come across. It’s very hard being plus size women; we come across so much judgment so much criticized specially from society and even family. One thing I have a hard time understanding is why do people relate to being thin to being beautiful or sexy? I believe Sexy is being confident, loving your self for who you are not for what the scale might tell you. One of the girls on the show said that her parent’s believe being plus size is being unhealthy. I can so relate to that EVERYONE that I have crossed paths in one way or other have question by health just because I'm a plus size women or big girl as I have been told many times. To a point that I stared to think that it was true. How could I be healthy being so big? Sometime no matter how confident a person is there is always someone telling them other wise. So I got the courage to make a doctor appoiment to once and  for all either realized I had health problems or was I healthy as any one can be , waiting for the results was a drag after 2 whole weeks My test came back I'm perfectly healthy!!! I don’t even have cholesterol hahaha. So that goes to show that NOT every big girl walking down the street is unhealthy. Now you might ask why you are in a journey to weight loss. Very easy to explain I’m not so much looking to be thin because I will probably never will be a size 2 or a 10 for that matter I have curves and I love them! I am in a journey to a healthy lifestyle more active life style. Even if I stay the same sizes that I am right now I will be happy, because my weight does not define me as a person, Love your self for big, small, medium, any size. Don’t let your size define who you are.

                                                   Rain of Stars    

What do you see ??????????

What do you see when you look  into a mirror? Do you see a beautiful women or a handsome man? Do you see a person with character? Do you see Family resemblances? Do you see a stranger?Do you hate what you see? Beauty IS in the eye oh the beholder!that is why is so important to like what you see when you look at your own reflection in a mirror! Dont be so hard on your self that you fail to see the real person that reflected there. Its very easy to let society's values help determine your own self-esteem. Look  for the truth about the person you see in the mirror. Look at the eyes and the smile.Is that person happy with themselves and bring happiness back into your face. and work on it! I contend that too many plus size people hide behind their  size.It becomes the catch all to what is wrong with other areas of ones life.have you ever said or thought.......... "If only I weren't overweight, I would be able to..... you fill in the blanks.The truth is, YOU can do or be whatever you want if you have the right attitude and willing to work on it, For many years I myself, hated to  look into a mirror I would think, God, Im FAT!!!!! I'm Not aging Graceffuly!I used to be Pretty!!! Why would anyone want me ??????
I have learned that once i began to accept myself and like who I am as a person,that my perception of myself and appearence changed.I no longer think negatively as i looked into the mirror.It is merely a snapshot of my physical appearence at any given  moment. I look into a mirror to see if my6 clothes are straight or if my hair or makeup needs fixed.I look and see smilling eyes  and lip. AndI have learned that the true reflection of me as a person can be seen in theyeys of those who love me!
What do you see when you look into a mirror?what do you need to accept or chance? Tell me what you see, think and feel............

How Do YOU Eat an Elephant?

How do you eat an elephant? 
One bite at a time.
How do you lose daunting amounts of weight?
One pound at a time will get you there.
No big plans. No hosting challenges. No sprint to a deadline.
JUST TRYING TO MAKE BETTER CHOICES EACH DAY THAT COMES ALONG!

I came across this about a week ago and felt like it was screaming my name. (Strange I know)
I have tried everything and anything to lose weight I have gain threw the years, with everything that everyone had to give me or suggested to drink take pills I mean EVERYTHING!
I would lose some weight just to go back to my old habits, old habits meaning gaining all the weight back and some more. I have come to realize that there is no easy fix or a magic pill that is going to make me skinny. I also realize that all those years  I was on a path of weight lost for all the wrong reason and that was a big wake up call this time around is different I feel different I don’t want to lose weight for another person or to please any one but my self to be honest with you I don’t want to be skinny I want to be HEALTHY. I don’t need to be a size 5 to be happy all I'm actually looking to become is a healthy person with healthy habits. For me it’s not about looking like society wants I to look its more about feeling great even if I stay a plus size woman. The weight I want to lose is to be healthy and have a more active life for Me.
                                                                                         Rain Of Stars :-)